The thing with Jimin is that while everyone is kind and is caring toward for others, and does things to make them happy. Jimin goes ABOVE and BEYOND. He's always CONSISTENT. ALWAYS MAXIMUM and LOUD about his love and care. So, while it's natural for some depending on certain situations for there to be a lack of enthusiasm (understandable), Jimin would still be giving his UTMOST and give his all to make them feel loved. On social media and ever more off camera. So, we tend to feel hurt+
+hurt when things like this happen. While no one has a bad intention, and I know he’s loved, it’s just Jimin , no matter what the situation is, he’d still go out of his way. And even when we know he’s loved, everybody needs a little reminding and hyping up, every once in a while, and Jimin is constantly forever caring mode is on for him. And I know he feels happy when little things are done for him. He’s grateful for every little thing, but everyone has different personalities and ways of love+
+Park Jimin is just on another level. So, I get that little feeling of sadness. Even though it’s something as simply as posting on social media, the situations aren’t the best, so the moods all vary and have a hand in certain things. But, hopefully he’s always loved. For LOrd, he deserves even more. Least the universe could do is return some of that love he gives. Sorry for the rant.lol. Today’s been emotional.With everything. UGH. Glad to have you back dear.
Thank you anon :) You summed it all up pretty well imo :D I get what you mean completely.
My two cents on JM (it’s long, sorry!):
Personally, I garnered a lot more about JM from watching his Vlive yesterday. He was in a very happy post-birthday mood and he shared more about his personal thoughts and private life than he generally does. To me that was an indication that he was as happy as he claimed to be. His general inhibitions were lowered, and he talked more about ‘himself’ for the first time in a very long time, in comparison to his previous solo Vlive’s.
What I understood from years of following JM, and had confirmed after his Vlive yesterday, was that JM is the way he is because of the way his family raised him. The full credit to him being this way goes to his family.
It’s the little gestures that matter, like his father sending him flowers with a message in English, despite not knowing the language fluently enough himself. The implication behind that message is that JM is now in a foreign land where English is the general lingua franca for them and the audience, and his father is also attempting to communicate in that foreign language so that his son won’t feel like he’s braving it alone. His father is involving himself in his son’s life despite the miles of distance between them, and making him feel that his family is always around him because “look, I’m experiencing the same thing as you so you’re not alone!” It’s something truly beautiful if you ask me. Along with the fact that he was able to celebrate his birthday with his family after such a long time, got to meet them in person and have a good time. You can really see that happiness on his face when he talked about it yesterday.
This self-engagement that he adopted from his parents is what JM projects onto others as well. That freedom of choice his family gave him is what he encourages others also to take, like when he supports JK to follow his passion in singing and in GCF, or complimenting on TH’s skills in art or acting, or when he humbly covered up his own ‘main dancer’ position just so that JH can receive the recognition instead, because as a dancer he knows how much JH wants to be known for his own dancing. When he goes ‘above and beyond’ to show someone that they’re appreciated, he keeps them in the forefront and thinks on their behalf. Some people might see this as him being a pushover, or him being intrusive of other’s spaces (a very common narrative among his antis) but that’s not the case at all.
JM’s actions make people realize what they themselves were lacking so to speak. He’s like that cup of hot cocoa you have on a cold, wintery night. You don’t realize just how cold you’ve been until you take that first sip and it warms you up beautifully from the inside. JM’s cup of hot cocoa is his family, and it’s because he’s been touched by that warmth all his life that he spreads it to others. This is also why, imo, JM gets so happy by the little things and does not ask for more. Materialistic pleasures or grandiose gestures of affections mean less to him in comparison to a simple ‘Happy Birthday’ text or taking photos together or being given flowers and balloons etc.
So based on this, I now try to focus on JM’s own choices for himself than what I would like for him to have. If he’s happy and content with simple gestures for his birthday, if he’s choosing to focus on the good in people and not pay heed to the antis/haters that want nothing but to bring him down, if he finds joy in performing on stage for his birthday (he did it too, despite his injury and the worry that he would not be able to celebrate his day with the crowd like he wanted to) - then I want to share that joy with him as well. Of course his injury worries me a lot still, and if it were in my power I would make sure that he’s never lacking in terms of love and support ever. But my worries and wishes can take a step back if JM himself wants to focus on the good things in his life. And looking at yesterday’s Vlive, I feel that JM will always find happiness in life not because he seeks it, but because he chooses to focus on that which makes him happy. I don’t think him telling the crowd “You are my birthday present” are just empty words at all. He chooses to see the fans as his birthday present, just like with his members and his family. Someone who chooses to see happiness wherever he goes and in whatever he does, will never run out of it. And even if dark days come ahead and he feels down (which he will, because he is human and we all have our off days) I know that if nothing else, his family will always be by his side to pick him up. And that they’ll remind him of his choices if he were to ever momentarily forget them.
Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if this quality in JM is what inspired JK to make GCFt for him, because it was JM who taught him how simple gestures like that can make someone unconditionally happy and inspired JK to give back in kind.
In my eyes, no one deserves Park Jimin. People like him are too good for the world. But he will still be there for others because that’s just what people like Park Jimin do, they’ll be there for you^^
(Trivia: In the message that JM’s dad wrote for him on the card, he missed the word ‘care’ in ‘Please take care of yourself’. Idk why but I found that to be really cute! ^3^)
(I need to start keeping a damn word count from now on I’m so sorry for this….)